Here’s a cool pic while I was on the ramp kicking out an aircraft for departure…I get to see the sunrise every now and then and its just awesome! This is probably the best part of the job: being out there with the aircraft, making sure everything is good for the flight and just making things happen.

The colors of autumn popped out of nowhere over the past week with some trees bearing their branches after only 2 days of color change! It’s beautiful out here especially the ride from the Hilton to work. Leaves falling as you drive through the tunnel of trees just gives you the sense of a movie like autumn-winter season. It really is breath-taking.

I’ve been getting a lot better lately with all the positive thoughts and mental motivation lately. Going out and just trying to keep a constant smile really does a body good. It was a rough time in life for me, but its all part of growing up I guess. I have said before that knowing when you are going to be coming home gives you a different sense of being prepared rather that not knowing at all. My leaves are a changin’ ~sorta…

Tonight was good, the cycle is once again on an upswing and I’m loving every minute of it! I still have yet to know a definite on whether or not I’m going to be staying in Luxembourg, but so far its all good.

As stated by the Underground Weather Forecasters, I’m in for a treat this coming week especially on Thursday!!! So it begins…can anyone send me some Long Johns SOON!!!! Oh yeah, I’ll be needing a Focus Air Beanie too!

5-Day Forecast for Luxembourg: EXTREMELY COLD!!!

As much as I would like to come home, the possibilities out here are plentiful. I mean, the sense of managing an international station of a cargo airline is awesome. Even though things are said to change and get better, I still will have to wait to actually see the fruits of that tree.

As I have come to find out, home means more than anything to me. The possibility of having a family and being home with them just means too much to me. I always find myself talking about the future in this business to see whether or not it is conducive to family life, and it just really isn’t. What am I suppose to do? I find myself at a very huge crossroad.

My first aircraft departure. N362FC LVX-FRA

Aircraft catering…its whats for dinner!

These last few days (or weeks) I can’t really tell because time just goes by at light speed has really brought me on a spiritual, growth, psychological, emotional, all over the place roller coaster. From debating my purpose here in Luxembourg to where I want to be in general; all these questions just really started to bog me down. I’ve noticed myself not dealing with things again. I’m still working but the details of my own life are getting left behind.

On my way to Amsterdam yesterday, I got to drive and just do a lot of thinking. Being with all the crew members and even meeting some cool people at Aero Ground just made me feel better all around. Things were looking up. It was a mess in trying to do my job because of security clearance issues, but I still was able to complete my mission (change out those Jepp bags). I got a room at the Novotel and enjoyed the night hanging out.

Today, I had the oppurtunity to drive with one of our assistant chief pilots back to Luxembourg. We took a rather scenic route back to Luxembourg through Bastogne which provided some good time for conversations. The gist of it though came at the end when I just started to speak about what was going through my head. “Don’t let false obligations get in the way of oppurtunities.” I needed to quote that because it just made sense. I’m missing my family and that is definitely a reasonable obligation, but the purpose of me being here is to grow and learn. That is an obligation that I owe myself perhaps. I don’t know how to reason it out, but its slowly beginning to feel right. I know that I’ve all the time later on to “hang out” but as long as I’m learning and am able to take something back with me, then its all good. I have to handle my workload and budget what I’m suppose to do and not over work myself because that’s where things go a little crazy. I have to give my mind a rest really.

I’m glad that I’m finally coming to my senses. It’s taken a lot out of me, but as long as I’m able to *tune* Always think of the bright side of your life *end tune* then my head will remain straight. Thanks for everything guys!

Thanks mom and adelle too. Calling it homesick just gave it a definition but talking about always helps. Sorry for venting Manoj. Things are looking up! Hopefully…