Sometimes I do go overboard and my mind and body cannot keep up with one other causing me to become out of sync.  To others, I’m just lifeless or much slower than normal but inside my head, my mind spins rapidly creating scenarios and ideas causing me to just take in life (present reality) without response.  Not the usual me but I have to learn how to deal with it.  Instead of giving up and continuing the funk, I need to just wake up the next day and try to get back up on the high horse.  Drowning out the my own thoughts is the best way that I can figure out how the heck I get back to myself. 

Today was a rather slow day, kind of nice, but there is a whole bunch of things that I need to take care of.  Too much clutter we have made in this life. 

After another one and half weeks of shifting around life, I find myself pulling an all nighter in Springfield, Missouri playing around trying to turn on my stupid iPhone 3G.  Because of the hassle, I wake up.  To no avail, I’m forced to schedule an appointment at the Genius Bar so that they could issue me a new one and or diagnose my problems.  It’s more than just a hassle but not having the utility of a phone is quite a handicap.  Of course while waiting forever for the boot cycle, I reorganize, got into cleaning and putting things in order and felt a lot better.  When I say a lot, I mean exponentially better!

I’m finally able beginning to find the ground that I need in order to function on the high that I want to stay on and as long as I keep that in the back of my head, I could be much more useful and quite the go getter.  I hate having the feeling of restless sleep, endless seconds upon seconds and the boringness that sometimes over shadows and clouds my thoughts.  The fact that grays surround my thoughts shouldn’t hamper my potential, but the blessings that envelop me should provide the fuel alone to keep on charging 110%.  Here’s to the beginning of September. 

It really sucks to be “on and off” in terms of mindset.  It’s like one day I’m on automatic and the next requires so much mental capacity and thought process that I just sit and vegetate.  I haven’t opened up my computer in over a week and just have been absent when around friends or colleagues.  I’m sure that this week will pose to be a lot better being that I’m back in action.  I guess just getting into the rhythm of things is something that I have to stay atoned to.  Here we go!!!

Over the last few weeks, things have just been going a little too well.  It’s definitely been a little bit since a major stretch of bliss, but I’m able to recognize that things are good again.  At least for the most part, the flying has been tremendous and the commuting hasn’t really been all that bad.  I’ve been updating trelijah quite often as it’s really easy to upload / email pictures to the site and the format is actually what I have been looking for in terms of quality.  The photos are almost full resolution!

I’m once again on the commute back to San Diego on AirTran enjoying the exit row eagerly awaiting the dry weather.  I’m about to head out tonight with one of my friends Joe who is back in town for a week vacation prior to starting up his last year at dental school in Boston.  Should make out for good times. 

I watched the Olympic Women’s Beach Volleyball finals match last night which was amazing!  It’s crazy to see that the two-some has won a total of over 100 matches in a row!  I haven’t been on top of the olympics really this year as I’ve been preoccupied with some personal stuff including flying my butt off an going right to bed. 

Life is precious.  The people around you that love you, that do the small things that sometimes you may overlook, really add that extra little spice.  We may not know it (as we probably don’t), but without those little additives, our souffle that our life is would just soften up and sink. 

Over the last couple of days, I’ve spent a lot of time hanging out with one of my buddies who just had his mother pass away.  With enough lamenting and reminiscing, one can’t help but think about an imminent possibility.  It’s truly saddening that it takes something of this magnitude to realize life’s lessons and sort out one’s priorities but I guess, it’s what makes us humans. 

The language of our love varies from one individual to another, but all we can do is take the time to patiently learn, understand and listen.  I have been blessed with a mother that has been selfless throughout her trials in the recent years and I know deep in my heart, she lives on for us.  A mother’s love is stronger than anything known to man and I can attest to that. 

I’ve been flying back and forth quite a bit and of course, after all this, it’s more than worth it.  Now, only if I could just start to organize the family’s move and get going with sorting and throwing things away.  It’ll be a lot of work, but I’m sure by Halloween it’ll be what I’ve been imagining since the beginning of this whole summer mess. 

I love you mom. 

In the next few months, I will be slowly transitioning to being more of a commuter and force myself to always fly home no matter what.  In other words, even if I have two days off, I will be flying back home to San Diego.  You see, the lease on our awesome Loxford Lounge Crashpad is due this up and coming February which leaves just under 7 months to slowly move.  Being that I haven’t been around lately, doesn’t really leave me that much time to pack up and go.  As long as I make it a habit to pack at least one box a week or month, I’ll be all moved out by year’s end making my reliance on the crashpad wither down to zilch. 

It is hard though now that I have been doing it a lot lately, but it really just takes will power.  I’m now able to concentrate on coming home since the fact my parents moved back to San Diego which cuts the drive home by almost 75% and is a lot more convenient all together. 

I was able to catch a flight on Delta Mainline this evening which is actually a rarity since I have been using the competition due to their availability.  Delta has always been full to and from Atlanta so my dependency has risen on Airtran thus enabling my frequent trips back home. 

The necessity for a crashpad in Atlanta would be only for the days that I am stuck in ATL due to weather or the times when I have training, but I guess that doesn’t amount to more than what I would ben spending a year of keeping a place within the airport limits. 

I’m going to do it!  I really am and I feel more confident than ever because of my desire to surf a lot more and just swim and get more physically fit.  I have till end of the year to really achieve what I have been aiming for and that is normalcy. 

So the family is finally moved back (75%) to the house which I loved in Rancho Penasquitos and while that’s all great, my schedule for August has changed dramatically.  I loaded the end of the month with all the trips from the following week giving me another week off in San Diego to help tidy things up.  You have to love the oppurtunity of Open Time that allows you to swap things around.  All of this just means that I won’t be coming back for the rest of the month, or at least might not come back due to the tight squeeze in commuting.  If you are around the SoCal area, hit me up.  I’ll be around till next Sunday, August 10th.  CYA!

Quick notes:  driving back and forth to downtown at around 2200 last night was fun, eating pizza on a curb on 5th with some old friends sure brought back some memories, the padres lost to the giants again, I got two free shirts at the game 1 from from Scripps (thanks Adelle) and the other from the Padres giveaway.  I’ll post pics of a deal-e-o that ended my night rather early thus the driving back and forth multiple times.

Update: Here are the pictures that I promised.  It’s House vs. 26′ U-Haul!  U-Haul won hands down!