Over Exertion

Sometimes I do go overboard and my mind and body cannot keep up with one other causing me to become out of sync.  To others, I'm just lifeless or much slower than normal but inside my head, my mind spins rapidly creating scenarios and ideas causing me to just take in life (present reality) without response.  Not the usual me but I have to learn how to deal with it.  Instead of giving up and continuing the funk, I need to just wake up the next day and try to get back up on the high horse.  Drowning out the my own thoughts is the best way that I can figure out how the heck I get back to myself. 

Today was a rather slow day, kind of nice, but there is a whole bunch of things that I need to take care of.  Too much clutter we have made in this life. 

Decompressing

After another one and half weeks of shifting around life, I find myself pulling an all nighter in Springfield, Missouri playing around trying to turn on my stupid iPhone 3G.  Because of the hassle, I wake up.  To no avail, I'm forced to schedule an appointment at the Genius Bar so that they could issue me a new one and or diagnose my problems.  It's more than just a hassle but not having the utility of a phone is quite a handicap.  Of course while waiting forever for the boot cycle, I reorganize, got into cleaning and putting things in order and felt a lot better.  When I say a lot, I mean exponentially better!

I'm finally able beginning to find the ground that I need in order to function on the high that I want to stay on and as long as I keep that in the back of my head, I could be much more useful and quite the go getter.  I hate having the feeling of restless sleep, endless seconds upon seconds and the boringness that sometimes over shadows and clouds my thoughts.  The fact that grays surround my thoughts shouldn't hamper my potential, but the blessings that envelop me should provide the fuel alone to keep on charging 110%.  Here's to the beginning of September. 

On and Off Again...

It really sucks to be "on and off" in terms of mindset.  It's like one day I'm on automatic and the next requires so much mental capacity and thought process that I just sit and vegetate.  I haven't opened up my computer in over a week and just have been absent when around friends or colleagues.  I'm sure that this week will pose to be a lot better being that I'm back in action.  I guess just getting into the rhythm of things is something that I have to stay atoned to.  Here we go!!!

The Good Feeling

Over the last few weeks, things have just been going a little too well.  It's definitely been a little bit since a major stretch of bliss, but I'm able to recognize that things are good again.  At least for the most part, the flying has been tremendous and the commuting hasn't really been all that bad.  I've been updating trelijah quite often as it's really easy to upload / email pictures to the site and the format is actually what I have been looking for in terms of quality.  The photos are almost full resolution!

I'm once again on the commute back to San Diego on AirTran enjoying the exit row eagerly awaiting the dry weather.  I'm about to head out tonight with one of my friends Joe who is back in town for a week vacation prior to starting up his last year at dental school in Boston.  Should make out for good times. 

I watched the Olympic Women's Beach Volleyball finals match last night which was amazing!  It's crazy to see that the two-some has won a total of over 100 matches in a row!  I haven't been on top of the olympics really this year as I've been preoccupied with some personal stuff including flying my butt off an going right to bed. 

Knowing and Missing Out

Life is precious.  The people around you that love you, that do the small things that sometimes you may overlook, really add that extra little spice.  We may not know it (as we probably don't), but without those little additives, our souffle that our life is would just soften up and sink. 

Over the last couple of days, I've spent a lot of time hanging out with one of my buddies who just had his mother pass away.  With enough lamenting and reminiscing, one can't help but think about an imminent possibility.  It's truly saddening that it takes something of this magnitude to realize life's lessons and sort out one's priorities but I guess, it's what makes us humans. 

The language of our love varies from one individual to another, but all we can do is take the time to patiently learn, understand and listen.  I have been blessed with a mother that has been selfless throughout her trials in the recent years and I know deep in my heart, she lives on for us.  A mother's love is stronger than anything known to man and I can attest to that. 

I've been flying back and forth quite a bit and of course, after all this, it's more than worth it.  Now, only if I could just start to organize the family's move and get going with sorting and throwing things away.  It'll be a lot of work, but I'm sure by Halloween it'll be what I've been imagining since the beginning of this whole summer mess. 

I love you mom. 

To Commute or Not...Most Likely Will

In the next few months, I will be slowly transitioning to being more of a commuter and force myself to always fly home no matter what.  In other words, even if I have two days off, I will be flying back home to San Diego.  You see, the lease on our awesome Loxford Lounge Crashpad is due this up and coming February which leaves just under 7 months to slowly move.  Being that I haven't been around lately, doesn't really leave me that much time to pack up and go.  As long as I make it a habit to pack at least one box a week or month, I'll be all moved out by year's end making my reliance on the crashpad wither down to zilch. 

It is hard though now that I have been doing it a lot lately, but it really just takes will power.  I'm now able to concentrate on coming home since the fact my parents moved back to San Diego which cuts the drive home by almost 75% and is a lot more convenient all together. 

I was able to catch a flight on Delta Mainline this evening which is actually a rarity since I have been using the competition due to their availability.  Delta has always been full to and from Atlanta so my dependency has risen on Airtran thus enabling my frequent trips back home. 

The necessity for a crashpad in Atlanta would be only for the days that I am stuck in ATL due to weather or the times when I have training, but I guess that doesn't amount to more than what I would ben spending a year of keeping a place within the airport limits. 

I'm going to do it!  I really am and I feel more confident than ever because of my desire to surf a lot more and just swim and get more physically fit.  I have till end of the year to really achieve what I have been aiming for and that is normalcy. 

August Update

So the family is finally moved back (75%) to the house which I loved in Rancho Penasquitos and while that's all great, my schedule for August has changed dramatically.  I loaded the end of the month with all the trips from the following week giving me another week off in San Diego to help tidy things up.  You have to love the oppurtunity of Open Time that allows you to swap things around.  All of this just means that I won't be coming back for the rest of the month, or at least might not come back due to the tight squeeze in commuting.  If you are around the SoCal area, hit me up.  I'll be around till next Sunday, August 10th.  CYA! Quick notes:  driving back and forth to downtown at around 2200 last night was fun, eating pizza on a curb on 5th with some old friends sure brought back some memories, the padres lost to the giants again, I got two free shirts at the game 1 from from Scripps (thanks Adelle) and the other from the Padres giveaway.  I'll post pics of a deal-e-o that ended my night rather early thus the driving back and forth multiple times.

Update: Here are the pictures that I promised.  It's House vs. 26' U-Haul!  U-Haul won hands down!

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Murphy's Law

If anything can go wrong, it will.  It all started last night while doing my post flight walk around in Harrisburg, PA.  As I was walking down the stairs, the moisture on one of the steps made me lose my footing, and I came close to doing a face plant on the asphalt.  Of course, because of that close call, I sprain and twist my ankle a bit and just continued to limp around the aircraft.  We finally arrived at the hotel and while getting off the shuttle, I hit my head so freaking hard on the van door that I end up seeing stars and falling forward a little, almost, once again catching myself before the concrete sidewalk.  I'm still feeling a bump about 26 hours later. 

I wake up this morning, have a great breakfast and head back to my room.  After my shower, I grab an undershirt out of my luggage bag, head back to the bathroom and slip on some water but caught myself on the sink by holding onto the tile counter.  I'm definitely not that clumsy at all, and over the previous 12 hour period, I find myself already with 3 strikes.  Today was going to be a great day. 

Of course, after a deadhead back to Atlanta, we find out that our flight to Southbend, Indiana is delayed about 1.5 hours.  This has to happen on the last roundtrip of a four day trip.  We finally take off and once we land in Southbend, we find out that the flight back Atlanta is delayed also another hour.  So that means that my connection back home to San Diego edges closer to being a non-reality.  With all the weather in the vicinity of the Atlanta Airport, I luck out and find out that both Delta and AirTran flights to San Diego are going to be delayed.  We fly back, hang out on the taxiways in Atlanta waiting for the ramp to open up and I run to the next gate. 

I'm finally on the AirTran plane Flight 616 that finally ended up leaving around 1:30AM.  The flight was originally scheduled at 9:45PM, but I guess things have a funny way of working out.  I'm going to land in San Diego around 2:30AM, head to the DMV around 10:30AM to take care of some car registration an then finish up some loose ends back at the house.  It's going to be a good start though.  August is here and so is the last half of the year.  At least most of the little karmic critters are out of the way. 

4 Day Trips vs 3 Day Trips

You ever have the feeling that you should be done with work that day but then you end up at a hotel again?  Well, let me try to put it in another perspective.  It's the feeling you get after sleeping for 3 hours on a 6 hour plane ride to only wake up with 3 hours left!  It never ends!  I'm lucky that I have a great crew this trip and that the days aren't that bad.  I've also been playing quite a bit on my new toy so that's occupying quite a bit of time. 

It was a little depressing having to fly on my birthday, but what can you do?  A friend of mine told me that she has birthday leave which is hard to believe because I don't think we get that here in the US.  I'm definitely jealous. 

I'm heading home once again to San Diego only to be tasked with moving a bit of furniture from one house to the other as well but at least it will all come to an end soon.  Which reminds me...

August Schedule / Apps

My new updated schedule for the month of August is up and over to the right -->

I've been twittering a lot lately with the Twinkle by Tapulous application and have found it to be quite fun.  It shows you who is nearby as well as the people that you follow on twitter.  The program is just a tad buggy as it ends up resetting my device once a day or so, but either than that and some other random programs, I'm on it the most.  Riding the bus to an from the parking lot is quite boring and this keeps me occupied. 

It's about 25 minutes till my birthday and I think I'll call it a night.  I had a great weekend which included a little birthday gathering at the house with some of my friends friends and I'm off again for another 4 day trip followed by a quick trip to San Diego (<36 hours) then by a nap then a 4 day trip.  Check it out on my August Schedule. 

***Update*** as always, because of the awesomeness that ASA lets up swap around our trips and schedules with an open time pot, I was able to trade my nap this weekend for something else a lot later in the month.  Looks like I'll be in San Diego for most of the upcoming weekend.  Check out the updated schedule.  See you on the beach!

The Beginning

Well, here I am again trying out, not only a new service, but a new device that my friends and I are planning to develop for. So far, in the last 72 hours, I have crashed the new phone multiple times thus not allowing me to accurately time the battery life using the built-in "usage" calculator. It's frustrating alright and sometimes the phone is just a little too slow. One gripe with using the contact sync feature with Apple's buggy-shoulda-been-beta mobileMe software package is the 5 seconds that I have to wait while trying to pull up one of my buddies. I can't say that I'm sold on it the "Exchange for everyone else" and will probably cancel it after the free 60 day trial. It's nice to have a calendar and photo library sync up but I can't justify the $100/yr just yet. I'm flying again quite a bit and with the initial award for August, it looks like I'll be able to keep up the commute or head out for another out of country adventure. I need I save some money up for the holiday season but who am I kidding anyways? Life is on another upswing and as long as I can keep up the positivity, it'll be smooth sailing.

I'm going to be Twitter-ing more often and even uploading some mobile photos that can be found on my facebook profile. Facebook released a handy little native app so depending on whether I keep it up will determine the continuation of trelijah. The name is probably going to change again...introducing eliPhone...maybe. :)

On and Off Again

As before and many times ago, I have mentioned times when I truly believed that I was ready to only be once again let down by the simple disappointments of expectations.  No matter how much I attribute them all. or at least most of it to being my fault, I still find myself yearning for more.  It's been a hard year and it is almost to the date where I found myself questioning the whole idea more and more.  There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of the future and where I will be 3-6 months. 

I've been throwing applications out there to various flying companies but of course, the state of the industry hasn't been allowing me the opportunities to interview or even be an exception the rule.  It's definitely going to be a touch couple of months and holiday season due to almost every airline cutting back flying.  So with the onslaught of upcoming furloughs and less flying, it's going to be hard to move upward and continue my cross-country commute. 

Things are the crashpad have been great but as we only have about 8 months left on the lease, the itch is slowly turning into a reality that I will have to find another crashpad and be more out of cash every month due to the highly possible increase in rent.  I'm lucky that the roommates that I have tolerate my messy space in the 2nd floor loft, but that luxury will disappear next February. 

The last couple of days have been a blessing in disguise.  I tell you this because the flying in Florida, particularly Miami and Tallahassee reminded me how much I love flying.  Not only the love for flying, but the love for actually flying passengers around.  The views of the coast just truly are exhilarating at  10,000 going 320 knots.  I'm glad really that I was fortunate enough to end up at a company that has the backing of a great parent company.  I can only hope on how the fall schedule will turn out. 

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Victory!

Season 3 Episode 18 of HBO's Entourage is definitely the one to watch for an uplifting feeling.  The feeling that one can relate to Johnny Drama is hits home.  From failing reviews to how what those who judge mean nothing while everyone else's (the layman) opinion mean everything.  I'm still on the Airtran flight commuting home and have another ~30 minutes until touchdown in San Diego. 

I was able to sell my David Clark Headset that I never used for a good 20% Discount of retail in just 2 days after posting them in the company classified intranet.  I'm definitely happy with the price I got and now, I'm just in the mood to cleaning out the closet again.  There are a lot of things just lying around and although the DVD sale didn't take off on Amazon.com, I'm just going to list what I can on eBay.  I've listed my older Treo 650 for $75 but got nothing so far.  It's a little disappointing since I bought the device for $600 just 3.5 years ago, but that's the way electronics depreciate I guess. 

I got my car back today from the dealership and have my job cut out for me.  Or at least I can say that Kurt and I have our jobs cut out in the fact that there are two oils leaks that I have to repair hopefully in the next month or so.  The oil pan gasket on my E30 doesn't seem that difficult, but something about the rear engine seal is definitely going to take about an entire day to work on especially since I'll have to guess what parts I need in advance so my car isn't disabled while we wait for a shipment of goodies.  Anyone out there with an '88 E30 iC just drop me a line with some DIY instructions as I'm in need to save as much as possible by not getting the stealership repair it and not buying a new car that comes with a monthly payment. 

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